- Current Mood: chipper
Well, my pancake breakfast is going to be made by me. My truck died on the way to church and would not start. I did pray for it, but God obviously has other plans for me. Praise God that I do have money in the bank , savings but ya gotta do what you gotta do. I think I will spend my time here sleeping first or breakfast first, and then trying out the new bible study software I bought last weekend. Yes I am frustrated but I know there are no accidents in a Christians life. I need to pray and see if I need to get rid of the truck and find something else (no motorcycle, I think God made that clear). Well, I guess breakfast is in order, I do have microwave pancakes in the freezer. Yes I know how to make them from scratch, I am not that clueless :-)
- Current Mood: disappointed
Well, it was a mix of feelings this weekend. I took off Friday to attend Celebrate Freedom, a free Christian concert with Luis Palau and his son Andrew, giving gospel messages. I had a wonderful friend join me, it was her first one. Friday we pulled in about 2:45 (we had expected long waits for parking) and we ended up paying 20.00 to park. I want to go through the good parts first. When the gates opened I went to check in at the volunteers booth and get my stuff and go through a briefing. After that I rejoined J and watched some of the groups. I left for my first area where they were having skateboard, bmx shows. I stayed for the whole show and presentation but there were clearly more counselors then needed. After that I went back and J and I either walked around or sat and listened to bands. We stayed until the 8:00 message and I felt led to stay up where I was, seeing a lot of the counselors were on the field already. Well after the invitation was given people where asked to raise their hands. And right down from where I stood some had their hand up and I moved over to them. Well I got a two for one deal, it was a married couple that were rededicating themselves. I will leave it there and say it really humbled and blessed me to have God use me. After that we left and came back Saturday. We decide that we would try out a spot on the floor of the stadium. It was covered by hard plastic panels, trying to set up our canopy was useless so we decided to set up front in just our chairs (they had attachable umbrellas) It was HOT, at least 20 degrees more then the upper deck where the vendors were. We moved back and forth for awhile but it just got worse. We saw people laid out being attended to for heat problems. Then my own friend had trouble and ended up being cared for by the Fire Dept. I grabbed our stuff and went to get the truck to take her home. We did enjoy our selves, it was ok but not what it had been in the past. People did get saved and that alone was worth it. Here are some of my observations.They moved from Southfork Ranch to Pizza Hut park in Frisco. I am not privy to all the information they have or the reasons for the move, I know I was disappointed at least. I was at CF last year with all the mud and rain and I LOVED IT. There was such a sense of fellowship and love that I was so touched by it all. This year the attendance was way down, I don't know if it was just the change or the weather or the economy. I so wanted to yell "MONEY CHANGERS!!" when I saw the prices on the food and drink. Water was going for 3.00 a personal pizza for 7.00, regular hot dogs for 3.50. The water was the worse, on Friday they would not let you in with water from outside (or food or drink) after the heat on Saturday some of the gate guards would let it in and some would not (water, other stuff was still forbidden) Drinks were being sold by mobile vendors carrying them around in Coor's Lite labeled cases. During the message by Luis Palau there were vendors hawking drinks and lighted toys!! even during the invitation! I feel the ban on water was down right dangerous, people drank less then should have because of the price. I would like to see it moved back to Southfork Ranch (if possible)
- Current Mood: disappointed
I still have tears drying on my cheeks and it has been several minutes since I started crying them. It cost me a 1.89 for God to touch me deeply. I got off work this morning and drove home as usual in my 97 ford ranger plastered with Christian stickers. Because I have them I try to be EXTRA careful of my road etiquette and where I go and what I do. Now that comes into play later. I first stopped to get milk at Krogers, no big deal , nothing going on but it will play into my story later. Ok, now off to get gas and something to eat because I didn't want to fix anything when I got home. So I decided to stop at Chick-fil-a and pick up a pair of tickets for this weekends Celebrate Freedom event ( I had already preregistered but I had to print those tickets off my printer less computer) ANYway, As I was driving away from the place I noticed a woman walking away from near their dumpster, from the back I really didn't think much of her until I past her and God spoke to me. I looked and saw she was somewhat filthy, her pants were tore and her sweater stretched out and she just looked like she was homeless ( now I live near and drive through an affluent neighborhood, right near a big Jesus stadium). I drove on but God worked me over GOOD. I made excuses "I am a Guy, not smart to approach a woman on the streets" God's answer? "Do it" I drove on and saw no one else "saw" her, even the other cars with their Jesus Fish or Church stickers. I finally turned around and headed back , planning to offer her my just bought breakfast. I saw her as I was driving back and turned in just as she was passing by. I honked and she turned around. That turn was in slow motion I swear, little by little her face came into view. She was not as old as I first thought, I couldn't really tell her age. As she turned around and showed her face I saw a face totally full of scar tissue, burn scars. She had a smile on but it was blank, she was not all their and I now remember as I drove up she was speaking in the air to no one I could see. I asked her if she had eaten and she said she had but she was thirsty. Well that foiled my plans and I wished her well and drove off, but then stopped and looked at the strip mall to my right. I could not believe it, Subway was open at 8am *HUHH?* I pulled in and did a double take and then called her over. I am sure we were a sight, a guy in scrubs with big ol' ear piercings and this shabby petite waif walking in, I told her to get what ever she wanted and she just took a big cup and put a little ice and half filled it with Coke. She smiled and thanked me and as we walked out I was not done. I told her that God told me to stop and ask if she were ok and tell her He told me to do it. I don't know if it got through to her or not, but she walked away as happy as she could be. I then drove off and broke into tears. IF I had not stopped for milk or at Chick-fil-a's I would have never seen her. God had plans for me this morning and he ordered my steps. I know that just buying someone a Coke doesn't seem that special or important. But I will tell you I will never forget it and that as we go through out safe little lives, others are out there that need a touch from God and WE are his hands and eyes and tongue. I thought of two ways she could have seen my truck, as another "Christian" who passed her by or someone who for once listened to that still small voice and showed her God cares. Matt 25
34"Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. 35For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, 36I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.'
37"Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? 38When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? 39When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?'
40"The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'
Now I know some out there might ask why I didn't do more, like give her money or take her someplace.
and thinking now, I don't need to explain myself, God knows and that's enough.
- Current Mood: loved
Wow, where did the week go? I can't believe it's Friday already. Well next weekend is Celebrate Freedom and Luis Palau. I am scheduled to be a follow-up counselor after invitation Saturday. I am so excited to do this, I did the same thing at a Billy Graham Crusade many years ago . It was so cool to talk to someone right after they gave their life to God, it was my first taste and I liked it. It was shortly after that Wow, where did the week go? I can't believe it's Friday already. Well next weekend is Celebrate Freedom and Luis Palau. I am scheduled to be a follow-up counselor after invitaion Saturday. I am so excited to do this, I did the same thing at a Billy Graham Crusade many years ago . It was so cool to talk to someone right after they gave their life to God, it was my first taste and I liked it. It was shortly after that I started going out with the church street witnessing and seeing that same look on other faces. It's not a pride thing, it's the awe of seeing God touch someone right in front of you. It is so true that you are a new creation, you can see it in their eyes and face and spirit. Pray, pray for those who God is calling. I know that the enemy is working overtime on them right now and it will only increase the closer they get to their appointment with their Savior. I remember my own struggles before I gave my life over to God, the re-dedication was even harder, I almost died. When I decided to come back to God, the enemy threw cancer in my path and then complications from the surgery and finally a pulmonary embolism which should have killed me. But it was too late for Satan, God already had is loving protective hands on me. I know I was saved for a purpose, to redeem the time and give my all to God.
Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?" And I said, "Here am I. Send me!"
- Current Mood: excited
My interesting weekend started Friday night when my truck overheated and a quiet voice said "thermostat". I am not a mechanic and knew it had to go to the shop to be repaired. So I prayed (hard) and left it in God's most capable hands. I told a friend and she offered to come take me to drop off the truck and then we spend the day in fellowship. I WAS going to look for a motorcycle Saturday but God obviously had other plans for me. I had a great time with J going to Marcel's bookstore and then Black eyed Pea for lunch (Yum) then to Petsmart to look at kitties (they stayed at the store) Well we finally found out that yes, it was a thermostat but not cheap, 3 hours labor for a total of 531.00
OUCH, that hurt, but God had provided already and it was taken care of. It would not be ready until Monday but after explaining what I had to do Monday they finished it Sunday afternoon. I took a cab down there (only a couple miles) and it was driven by a believer who was having troubles and I got the chance to be an encourager.
I check in with J and told her I was mobile again, thanking her again for the help she gave me AND (almost forgot) the great Father's day gift she gave me (cool leather choker with three different crosses on it) Well, let me tell you about today, I had a Dr's appointment to read my cancer scans from 2 weeks ago and the news is...........I am STILL cancer free!!!!! Not only that but I get to have my medi port taken out of my chest (the place they used to give me chemo) this makes me most joyous. Ok, I am going to finish hunch and then head to bed before work tonight.
God Bless Y'all
- Current Mood: jubilant
Ok, I got off work and I left with all my patients alive and breathing (last week I had two pass away on me) I was thinking last night about a LOT of things, mostly how I got to where I am and who I am (pretty deep huh?) I mean, lets say I am not your average Christian man. Ok, let's be blunt, I am not your average 51 year old male. In someways I never followed my peers, I was always a little off center. That didn't change when I became a believer and it explains why I lean towards the people I want to reach (people like me, outcasts) I have been there, done that, have the scars to prove it. I look back on my life now and see how God really molded and shaped me. I see now I never really held onto any period of my life to define me. I was a teen during the late 60's through the mid 70s, a 20 something during the 80s and so on and so on. You could not get me to go see any of the music groups from those eras, I always moved on to new music. Same with lifestyles and communities, I liked a bit from all types, but never claimed any to define me. I walked barefoot in bell bottoms in High School, Moshed at underground clubs and painted my nails black, non ear piercings in 1977, and I guess I need to write this down in more of a chronological order after thinking about it some more . I guess it's time to finally write out my testimony.
Ok, for now that's it, I am off to get some sleep.
- Current Mood: contemplative
Hmm, guess I will start with the wait for my scans to come back. Actually it's no big deal, I know whatever happens God still has me in His hands and His will be done. Speaking of His will, got a glitch in the Celebrate Freedom weekend. It seems that my director made a mistake in giving me the PTO I asked for on that weekend. She called me this morning to tell me that another tech asked for time off first and she didn't have the staff to cover. She is going to see if one other person could cover and call me tomorrow. At first I was miffed and I am sure I sounded mad or upset (ok, so I was) But God had already started dealing with my attitude while on the phone, and I called back to let her know it was ok one way or the other. I did say that if I could only get off on Friday it would be enough. See, I know this is the enemy working on it because I am sure something great is going to happen. This is a free Christian concert with Luis Palau speaking and giving an invitation, I signed up to be one of the follow up counselors. And the enemy knows the effect that last year had on me and my walk with God, sure he doesn't want that to happen again. So, this is all in God's hands.
Ok, time to eat lunch and then get ready to sleep ( I work 11pm to 7am
- Current Mood: calm
So, I am now home, relaxing and catching a movie. Oh, looking forward this month to Celebrate Freedom 2008, a two day free Christian concert put on by a local Christian radio station (some of my band friends will be playing it).
Ok, that is it for now.
See you there or in the air!
- Current Mood: cheerful
- Current Mood: hopeful